I haven't felt this great in a while. I am happy even though I am not deluding myself into thinking this feeling will last. It's cool if I feel less great later, as I am now reminded that of the possibilities... I'd call it a high, but the great thing about my current state is that it is not drug induced (though wine may have had a slight influence... but that was hours ago).
Thanks Cranna and others, I may finally be moving forward to whole personhood. I've always wanted to be a worthwhile human being.